The Day I Let You Go ..

It has been about 40 days since the feeling appeared and 17 days of happy feeling before knowing the fact .. it's been a crazy ride, but it was sweet .. 

What a journey it has been, but too bad the end is not inside yet .. 

Whether it's taking each other for granted or people change, the bottom line is when one side stop responding, eventually the other side stop trying and finally the feeling will just disappear in time. Even now, I already feel that you're slipping away from my mind, though still pops up every now and then, but I'm sure it will be over soon ...

So 12 December 2012 .. 12.12.12 -- was the day I let you go. After all the things happened, I'm glad I get the chance to have my closure even I don't know how it ends on your side, but to me this is it.  

Even at the end I won't get a happy ending from this feeling I had, I'm glad that it was you I fell for, even though I don't know why it was you. But thank you for the moments, they were sweet .. 

You can't choose who you fall in love with, when or where it will happen .. I guess that's how love and God work .. in mysterious way. Love does hurt you sometimes and it's not so easy to find, but don't stop looking for it 'cos it can be found in a very strangest places. 

I didn't believe that before, but after experienced it myself .. I have to agree. Even until this very second, it still don't know how it happened. I still wonder why too .. 

But the more I wonder, the more I stuck with the feeling .. so whatever it is, I'm sure God has His reason for me and him to meet this way. 

Now .. I look forward to the day I see you and feel nothing .. It would be the day I can finally let you go. So when the day comes, I hope things are ok between us. 

Letting Go - birthday wish

Yeah, it's MA birthday .. Happy Birthday to me .. :)


thank you God for another year, for all the laughter, tears, joy, heartache, love, blessings throughout the year. It's been one challenging year but it's also memorable. I have no regrets ..

Thank you everyone for all the good wishes through different social medias, whatsapp, text message, phone calls and also thank you for the gift . And to those who spent the day with me .. I'm so grateful and feel blessed for having each and everyone of you in my life. 

But sadly that one person I wish to wish me on my birthday .. did not. I guess he was never really care afterall .. who I thought might have a little feeling for me, apparently was just my feeling and imagination. He never actually interested in me. 

So this year birthday, I dedicated to him ... the one person who has made a big difference in my life even in just a short time and doesn't even know it. It's been great having this feeling, even you don't feel the same and even there will be no happy ending between us, but I'm glad it was you that I fell for, I'm glad that my feeling goes to you .. 'cos I know that way I still believe in love, that my one true love is still somewhere out there. 

I know time will heal this feeling and when that happens, it would be the time I can finally let you go for good. As for the time being, I'm gonna face and live with the fact that we're never meant to be together, it was just me who hope too high. 

I'm letting you go .. I need that room in my heart that you have filled this past few weeks with new hopes and dreams. I'm done trying and hoping as I don't wanna get hurt even more knowing that you never care. I will never understand the things that you did which lead me to think that you're interested, but it's OK .. 'cos the wrong feeling was nice and made me smile. 

So thank you for things that you did, a lot ... but you never knew that they made a big impact ..