What remains

It's been 4 months since my last post .. how time flies and in those 4 months sadly to say that the feeling still there. But finally today, I've received the confirmation I've been waiting for the last 6 months ... surprisingly I felt OK. When I found out, I actually smiled and it felt like a burden lifted up from me. Now, I finally can stop wonder. 

It's amazing how this feeling works .. 

Be happy Net .. he was someone special that God brought to you. Through him, He taught you how to let go, how to be a better person and to accept the fact that everything in life need fighting for, nothing comes easily. 

For what it worth, I don't regret a single thing I did, including the big risk I took, wasted my feeling and time thinking about him. Whatever happened, I'm glad it was him, I won't have it any other way. A good thing that I know him as much as I need to know him .. brief and I have no memories to remember much. 

But I guess my biggest mistake wasn't falling for him, but it was thinking he had fallen for me too .. silly me! 

What remains now is hope that I had for him .. but now I'm ready to move on. I'm ready to leave this feeling behind. I'm ready to refer you as past tense. Thank you for the nice journey.