22nd day of 2017

Time flies indeed .. I still can't believe that it's 2017, it seems that I've lost a whole 2016. I didn't feel that it happened... as I have been stucked with these short sweet moments I had and I didn't want it to end -- too much wonder of what happened. So I keep looking back where I suppose to let go and move on. 

Face it Net and accept the fact that it ain't coming back. Yes, it was sweet indeed but it's over. In fact, it ended before it even began. Something happened, you might never know why, but someday it's gonna make sense, as everything happened for a reason. 

Treasure those short moments you had with him, remember the good things about him, remember the way he made you feel. But also remember that things change, people change... "Everyone who is in your life are meant to be in your journey, but not all of them are meant to stay till the end" -- he is one of them. 

You can look back every now and then, it's only normal, afterall we are human who has feeling, emotion, memory -- but don't dwell on the past for too long, at least you've tried doing what you think it's necessary. If there is no response from the other side, then you should know where you stand. 

Walk away .. move on .. let go .. find your happiness. Thank you for the times, the moments, and all the things you have made me feel. Maybe for that short moments, I was special to you, but maybe it was all in my head. Whatever it was, thank you for making memories with me. 

I hope when you look back, or for some reason I pop up in your head, you would smile and remember me as someone who was once make you laugh and remember that we were once sharing stories and spent times together -- remember me as someone nice that walked into your life for a little bit and made an impact .. someway somehow. 

So as my yearly ritual, here are my 2016 movie list

1. Ngenest
2. Alvin and The Chipmunk
3. The Big Short
4. London Love Story
5. Deadpool
6. Comic 8: Casino Kings Part 2
7. Kungfu Panda 3
8. Zootopia
9. Allegiant
10. Batman VS Superman
11. London Has Fallen
12. 13 Hours: Secret Soldiers
13. Huntsman: Winter's War
14. Ada Apa Dengan Cinta 2 (2x)
15. Captain America: Civil War
16. X-Men Apocalypse
17. My Stupid Boss
18. Mother's Day
19. Money Monster
20. Now You See Me 2
21. Central Intelligence
22. Finding Dory
23. Independence Day: Resurgence
24. Jilbab Traveler Love Sparks in Korea
25. Rudy Habibie
26. Koala Kumal
27. Star Trek Beyond
28. Ghostbusters
29. Jason Bourne
30. Skiptrace
31. Sully
32. Warkop DKI Reborn
33. Inferno
34. Accountant
35. Bridget Jones' Baby
36. Doctor Strange
37. Trolls (2x)
38. Fantastic Beast
39. Underworld: Blood Wars
40. Star Wars: Rouge One
41. Sing
42. Hangout
43. Moana

'till next year and once again, thank you for the memories, the lessons, the moments and thank you for walking into my life, and for whatever reason you did stay a little bit and made me feel special and good about myself. 

Thank you for making me smile and for making me feel alive -- for a little while you made me look forward to a new day, with you. 

Have a good 2017 Net, find your happiness. It's out there and feel the love again.

XOXO

4 months after 2016

Well, this is definitely a long overdue posting. I haven't really got into the mood of writing much this year. Though I must say 2015 has been one special year I had in long time.

Yeah, I met someone - I still find it hard to believe myself. 
He filled my days with sweet memories, good moments, happy feeling and definitely big smile on face for a while .. but let's just leave it at that 'cos I just wanna remember him as someone who made me happy and not the jerk he turned out to be. 

So as previous years posting, here is my 2015 movie list .. 

1. Blackhat (2 times)
2. The Imitation Game
3. Nada untuk Asa
4. Mortdecai
5. Cinderella
6. Insurgent (4 times)
7. Fast and Furious 7
8. Avengers: Age of Ultron
9. Cinta Selamanya
10. Spy
11. Pitch Perfect 2
12. Jurassic World
13. Minions (2 times)
14. The Age of Adaline
15. Lamaran
16. Comic 8: Casino Kings
17. Ant-Man
18. Mission Impossible 5: Rouge Nation (2 times)
19. Fantastic Four
20. Pixels
21. The Man from U.N.C.L.E
22. Inside Out
23. Hotel Transylvania 2
24. Maze Runner: The Scorch Trial
25. The Intern
26. PAN
27. Bridges of Spies
28. James Bond: Spectre
29. The Hunger Games: Mockingjay Part 2
30. The Good Dinosaur
31. Star Wars: The Force Awaken
32. Negeri Van Orenje
33. Single

Not a bad list huh? And I had special moment watching 3 of the movies and I won't change it for the world. 

So today is the 17th day of April and 2016 has been quite sucky so far. But I'm still trying to look at the bright side of it all - there are lots of things to be thankful of for sure. 
I guess they are just another obstacles in life that I need to overcome to be a better and stronger person.

Lesson learned. At least I've tried. 

Let's embrace it. You'll never know what tomorrow brings. 
Maybe you will have several bad days, but it doesn't mean you have a bad life. 
Everyone has their own fight in life .. but at the end of the day, God's plan always works out the best,
We may never understand it now and maybe it's not as you wanted but believe that it would be for the best. 

Have a good journey of 2016 Net ..  
I hope somehow someway I leave a small memorable mark in you .. 
And when you think about it, you will smile 'cos it was special and you know that it was me that leave the mark.

'till then ..

2nd Day of 2015

Well here we are .. the New Year, 2015 .. Happy New Year to each and everyone of you. I still can't believe that 365 days have passed like that. I had my good moments and definitely bad moments, but I'm sure there always a lesson that we can learn from those moments happened in our life.

I only had one overseas trip last year, to Singapore. It's kinda become my yearly trip and this time I stayed for 6 days, 'cos I had a free accommodation. It was a good break in between the crazy routine. I have big trip plan this year, hopefully $$ will be friendly and hopefully I earn more this year ^^

So ... 2014 has been quite an interesting and challenging year, but let us leave the bad things behind and bring the good things forward to 2015. Be better than last year -- Happy New You! 

Time to make a change .. take that leap of faith and believe that everything will be OK. You can have everything you want and need, if you just believe! 

So as previous years, here are my movie list .. 

1. Laskar Pelangin 2 - Edensor
2. Comic 8
3. The Lego Movies
4. Captain America - The Winter Soldier
5. The Other Woman
6. The Amazing Spiderman 2
7. Brick Mansion
8. X-Men
9. 22 Jump Street
10. How to Train your Dragon 2
11. Transformers: Age of Extinction
12. The Expendables 3
13. Guardians of the Galaxy
14. Malam Minggu Miko - The Movie
15. The Maze Runner
16. Big Hero 6
17. The Best of Me
18. The Hunger Games - Mockingjay Part 1
19. Penguins of Madagascar
20. 7/24
21. The Hobbit - Battle of Five Armies
22. Pendekar Tongkat Emas
23. Night at the Museum 3

Wow .. it's a very small number. But I did miss quite last year due to workload and several things. Need to catch up this year, but thanks to HBO, I didn't miss much LOL.

So .. let us embrace the new journey of 2015 and hope things will be better. 

Take care all and peace out!

3 days before 2015

Whooaaaa ... how time flies. It seems like only yesterday we started 2014, but now soon we will welcome 2015. I don't really feel that I accomplished anything this year, but I'm thankful for another healthy and surviving year. 

I'm so very thankful for something quite big and challenging offered to me but I decided not to take .. I'm sure it was His plan for me, as He has something better for me. I'm sure He has good plan for me, He's just waiting for me to take the step and start. Baby steps -- it's not too late. Everything will be beautiful in time ..

Now instead of wondering what if, let us embrace what will be .. I have several big plans for the upcoming New Year, I just hope for a smooth journey. Time to leave the comfort zone and see what is waiting for me out there. 

"Oh, it's time to start livin'
Time to take a little from this world we're given
Time to take time, cause spring will turn to fall
In just no time at all...." - Pippin OST

'till next time .. Peace out! 

1 month after Christmas

First and foremost, Happy New Year .. it's the 25th day of 2014, exactly one month after Christmas. Well, I've been lacking with this blog, I guess there isn't much to share. 

Anyway, 2013 was an adventure and yet sad. I lost two of our colleagues, friends who somehow had been a family, Mba Gita and Adit. May you two rest in peace and please keep us from above. It was such a great loss and I'm not good in dealing with these things, but then again who is .. 

As for him .. well, nothing further happened nor we remain friends. So basically he was just another someone who made a quick stop in my life but leave a lasting impact in way or another. I will forever grateful. 

For what it worth, all those bad and good things that happened, it was part of life, part of growing up. So let's us just enjoy the journey in life. 

"Thank the things that didn't work out, because they just made room for the things that will. Thank the ones who walked away from you, because they just made room for the one who won't" 

I'm thankful for my family, friends, health and all the small things that made and will make my life colourful and beautiful. 

So as previous years, here is my 2013 movie list .. 

1. Chinese Zodiacs
2. Les Miserables
3. Hansel and Gretel
4. Rectoverso
5. Die Hard 
6. Flight
7. Silver Linings Playbook
8. OZ The Great and Powerful
9. Olympus Has Fallen
10. Argo
11. GI Joe: Retaliation
12. The Croods
13. Finding Srimulat
14. Iron Man 3
15. Cinta Brontosaurus
16. Star Trek Into Darkness
17. Fast & Furious 6
18. Now You See Me
19. Cinta Dalam Kardus
20. Monster University
21. White House Down
22. Despicable Me 2
23. Pacific Rim
24. Turbo
25. Red 2
26. The Wolverine
27. Smurfs 2
28. Get Married 4
29. R.I.P.D
30. 2 Guns
31. Runner Runner
32. Manusia Setengah Salmon
33. Prisoners
34. Thor: The Dark World
35. The Big Wedding
36. Noah: The Movie
37. The Hunger Games 2: Catching Fire
38. Frozen
39. The Hobbit: Desolation of Smaug

Not bad for the increment .. need to do better this year.

'till next time .. 

What remains

It's been 4 months since my last post .. how time flies and in those 4 months sadly to say that the feeling still there. But finally today, I've received the confirmation I've been waiting for the last 6 months ... surprisingly I felt OK. When I found out, I actually smiled and it felt like a burden lifted up from me. Now, I finally can stop wonder. 

It's amazing how this feeling works .. 

Be happy Net .. he was someone special that God brought to you. Through him, He taught you how to let go, how to be a better person and to accept the fact that everything in life need fighting for, nothing comes easily. 

For what it worth, I don't regret a single thing I did, including the big risk I took, wasted my feeling and time thinking about him. Whatever happened, I'm glad it was him, I won't have it any other way. A good thing that I know him as much as I need to know him .. brief and I have no memories to remember much. 

But I guess my biggest mistake wasn't falling for him, but it was thinking he had fallen for me too .. silly me! 

What remains now is hope that I had for him .. but now I'm ready to move on. I'm ready to leave this feeling behind. I'm ready to refer you as past tense. Thank you for the nice journey. 

18 days later

It's been 18 days passed since the New Year .. I thought I'll be over him by now, but apparently I haven't .. at least not yet completely! We have no so-called good progress in term of interaction and intense conversation, though I guess we're ok .. but yet still hard to let go. 

Though I learned through time that the hardest part of love is letting go .. but this isn't love, this is merely a crush .. weird crush. So why is it so hard? There isn't any promises or any sweet memories to remember, but yet there is something about him that make me stick around, and I don't know what .. 

Nowadays, I'm acting as normal as I possibly can .. I try not to use any feeling 'cos once feeling involves, it's gonna be even harder to let go. People always say "Expect the unexpected" .. I've stopped expecting the unexpected so once it happened, I take it as a blessing and not hoping for more after that. 'cos at the end, it's me who will end up hurting. 

So now .. I'm only trying to his friend, but I don't know what he wants. So whatever it is, I'm just gonna be normal. If we ever happened, then we happen. If not, I have nothing to lose .. instead I'm glad having this feeling.

I'm looking forward for where time will take me next .. hopefully I manage to pull through

"falling in love is easy .. staying in love is a challenge ..
letting go is hard .. moving on is the hardest.."